Chronic Ama

No, not really. Actually, I do. But I just don't give a big enough fuck to say it. Maybe when I have more time to sit down and collect my thoughts more. Who knows when  that will be. In the meantime, I leave you with my Valentine's wish list:

I really hate saying I'm tired. Or exhausted. Or anything that falls into those categories. But, today I really am. Mentally and physically. The worst part about it is that I don't even know why. Maybe it's because it's after 6:30 and I'm doing laundry, waiting for my daughter to clean her room and sort of dreading bath time. I'm just going to forget about it all and as soon as the kids are I  bed, I'm going to eat cookies. Like, a whole fucking box of them.

That episode of Sponge Bob where  Sponge Bob and Patrick are selling chocolate bars and that one crazy fish dude is chasing them and yelling "Chocolate!" I'm the crazy fish dude. But I have an accomplice. I guess hump day really needs to happen...... If you know what I mean.

I think I know why I avoid the mall. Took Mark's watch to Fossil for a better and it broke and new want worth repairing, so we traded in. I love Fossil watches though, so worth the investment. And then the jewelry store had pieces I couldn't live without. Valentines came early this year. I would have shopped more, but my little monkey butt was getting tired. That's my safety net for shopping. A tired two year old. But now I need my Bath And Bodyworks fix.

Can't shake the feeling that I'm on the verge of some kind of break through or grand revelation or something cool. I wonder what it is. Maybe it has something to do with my past fitting ever so perfectly with my present.  I find myself super delighted to be me. Even more so than usual. Maybe there is something to be said with a certain someone's birthday coming up soon. Perhaps I got rid of so much shit from the air in here recently that only the good is shining through. I guess I really don't have to know. All things in life show themselves when they are ready and when you are ready to see them. But I can't wait to see.....

that my kids don't knock my socks off in amazement. I am entranced by standing back and watching them grow and learn. Seeing Logan run toward "more planes" at the Air And Space Museum made me smile like it was going out of style this evening. Hearing Bella say "I'll be at the books" in the museum gift shop made me a proud momma of a smarty pants. Now I also get to look forward to watching Planes later with them. And probably eating popcorn and cookies. Damn, my weekend was awesome. Was yours?

Woke up. Worked out. Sold Girl Scout cookies. Saw an old friend and met the most adorable little boy! Yup. Today was good. And it gets even better. The kids are going to Nana's house and I'm getting taken out for ice cream! And then.... Tomorrow is going to be amazing too! But it's a secret for now....