Chronic Ama

Your traditional idea of a haunted house just happens to by my dream house. Something old and in need of love and full of life not of the living.  Today is not about my dream house of haunts. Or pumpkins. Or treats. It's really about the beginning of a time of year when we come together. It's a wonder that the first of the fall and winter holidays is All Hallows Eve, the beginning of the time set aside to remember our loved ones long since gone.  Tonight there will be magic all around and warmth in my heart.

I'm currently still on a search for as much information as I can find about the pending investigation into the drug Lupron. Lupron is a drug commonly used to treat prostate cancer in men, and more recently, to treat endometriosis symptoms in women (and men in some cases as well). It works by overstimulating the production of hormones, namely testosterone and estrogen, causing them to stop being produced temporarily. I fought with insurance companies in 2015 to take Lupron after having a surgery that provided no relief from my pelvic pain. It was the second to last resort treatment that my OBGYN at the time suggested. We didn't want to skip to the last resort, which was having my last remaining ovary removed, because being only 34, it was not the best idea to undergo surgical menopause. I was excited to try my 6 months of Lupron to see if it provided at least a few years of relief. It was highly recommended, with the only side effects being worsening symptoms shortly after t

I had the most amazing weekend! That makes two in a row. I hope we keep this as the current trend.  Friday was our first PTO event at the school. Sonoran Science East PTO First Annual Trunk-Or-Treat! I was so surprised at the amazing turn out as well as all the helping hands we had! The event even came together without any huge snags! It was a little stressful, I'll admit, but it was worth all the work we put into it. I'm excited to start planning more! Saturday we celebrated the life of the woman that showed me what friendship is all about. And we celebrated together as an amazing tribe of people. Linnea, you gave me the one thing that I had needed and searched for and that is an amazing group of people that are so full of love and caring. You showed me it was OK to be me, with all my flaws and everything. You welcomed me and my family into the tribe and we will forever be grateful for that. My kids are surrounded by other amazing kids and they are care for by so ma

To be honest, I'm writing this blog a few days late. I had such an amazing weekend, I kinda made blog notes, but that's as far as I got. I spent most of my Saturday with my tribe, including 13 kiddos and some pretty amazing adults. Man, I needed that connection so badly. I am so incredibly grateful for having other parents that I can relate to. Not that I didn't have that at all, but it just feels great to click as part of a group.  I think all adults, parents or not, need friends. And not just people we see on occasion. I believe we need the kind of friends that we can laugh and share with or even swing to the other extreme and share our grief with and, of course, everything in between that. Plus, it's a bonus for me when there are other parents, no matter the age of the kids. Kids need friends too and when they can learn to relate to kids of different ages, it builds on their social skills. Really, we just all need friends. That's it, plain and simple.

I wanted to feel like I accomplished something this morning, so I made myself a to do list. It's very long and I should have put it in order of what needs to be done first. I figure it's ok if I take all weekend to finish the list. I also was thinking if I should reward myself between finishing tasks. I have some bakery treats, but no appetite. That won't work. I guess I'll reward myself by keeping the TV on and taking mind numbing breaks. Can't go wrong with Halloween things to watch. Let's see how this goes.... 0910, the bathroom is clean. Sitting down for a few minutes of "Halloween Wars" on food network. I don't know why I love this so much.  1413, the kitchen is clean, the pool is put away for next year, and I've cleaned up paperwork on my desk. I have also showered and curled my hair for the day. Halloween stuff is also out of the shed and in the house and I've put up a whole two things. It's a start. I have about 1

I'm excited that it's October, because I finally get to show my true self! Ok, well, that seems so cliché now that I said it. I love all things Halloween! My house is Halloween every day of the year, but in October, the rest of the world joins us.  I want the month to go slow. I go back to work tomorrow, very very part time. I'd say I'm nervous, but I'm just preparing myself for the storm. It's busy season, but this year I am not going to work myself into a flare up or what ever else happens to my body when I stress out. Work exists without me and I exist without work. I can accomplish what I will in the hours that I am working and not worry about what I cannot accomplish in those hours. Plus, with the new pay increases, I'm almost back to working new hire wages. Yes, we all deserve a living wage, but when you have employees that after working for a company for 18 years will be making what every new person makes, it's just a big middle finger. Yet

I've been searching for interesting writing prompts for October. I haven't really found any that make me excited to write. I really can't describe jumping in a pile of leaves, because, well, Arizona... or why I love sweaters and boots, because, again, Arizona. The high yesterday as 97 and we hit 99 today before the rain came. I was hoping to open the door and let the cool air and the smell of rain in, but there is no cool air. Maybe we'll cool down the next few days since we're expecting rain. I think tomorrow I'll take out more Halloween decorations. I just have to postpone decorating outside until after vacation. I don't need some asshat stealing my decorations or lights. I really don't trust anyone around here lately. Are you scratching your head wondering what decorations I could possibly take out being as it's pretty much Halloween every day in my house with the life sized skeleton behind the recliner and the bat curtains in the dining room? I

I fucking love candy corn. I'm sure those of you that know me are well aware of this fact. I'm also sure that a lot of you reading this have stopped. I'm pretty sure candy corn is about as popular as brussel sprouts (which I also love fried with some bacon bits). Today you get to picture candy corn as I complain more about mood. I've gone from ugh to angry, so this is probably coming to an end and thus, a return to normalcy. I also probably need to catch up in sleep a bit. I haven't been sleeping that well and I wake up overly tired in the morning and consume my weight in coffee throughout the day. Right now I'm just counting down to tomorrow, a day I didn't plan anything for, to just relax. No errands, no appointments. I do have an evening engagement, but it won't get in the way of my plans to be in my pajamas until noon. Maybe I will grab a book and get in the pool for a bit. It's still hot enough. I'm hoping that tomorrow will be my res

I'm not currently very happy with Blogger's integration of their mobile app and desktop site. My blog post that I started working on this morning was just eaten. And that's not the first time that's happened. I'm also wholly disappointed in the app. I love using it for blogging on the go, especially on the treadmill, but it has so many glitches, it's annoying. I cannot post pictures to my blog from the mobile app and that sucks. Bitching aside, today I had a couple epiphanies. Is that allowed? Can someone really have more than one in a 24 hour period? Is that why my anxiety showed up after these lovely, revealing moments in my day? First, I have been keeping track of what I do every day and how I feel at the end. I've come to the conclusion that about 4 hours of activity (cleaning, shopping, just being up and on the go) is about all I can handle right now. I'm hoping to increase this a bit so I can be functional when I go back to work. I would like t

61 days until Halloween, even thought it's basically Halloween year round in my house. More importantly, there's only two hours until the other half of my heart gets back from his work trip. I'm so excited! I have been trying to keep busy around the house all morning. I even got crafty for about an hour and then made sure everything around the house was perfect. I even waited to put on my lipstick so it was carefully applied and had no chances of smudging. If you don't know already, I'm totally a type-A perfectionist.  I have been thinking a lot these last few days about all the aspects of having endometriosis. A lot of the message boards and groups I am part of have posted interview type questions lately and I wonder what any of you would ask me about having endometriosis. I'm curious if anyone is reading this and for those that do, would you take the time to post a question. Not only will it help me put the noise in my head into words, but it will help