Chronic Ama

Yeah, a matchstick that makes your life hell. Well, actually, not for the first 5 months at least. And I guess I need to put some of my blame on the surgery I had in May.... But, since June I've been feeling like crap. I got a period after not having one for 7 months and the day before that came on, I had a migraine that kept me in bed all day. Then, after 7 days of a heavy period, I got a few days of rest, more headaches and then another period!! OK, my hormones are out of whack! I am also so anxious and angry and tired all the time. Today seemed like a good day to cry to me and also a good day to pick up the phone and call my OBGYN. I thought about going back to my endocrinologist since he said I may need surgery again and he could tie my tubes, but I'd have to go to my OBGYN to get the implant removed. So, I figured I'd just try to see one doctor. I figure she could take the damn thing out, tie my tubes, remove scar tissue and assess my ovaries in one swift move. Ho

First of all, I can't sleep right now. I've been getting contractions again and I haven't been able to get comfortable and sleep through them. I'm hoping some Tylenol PM will do the trick. I'd rather like to be sleeping right now. Second, it became official as of yesterday that my C section is scheduled for September 15 th . Now, I said I wasn't gonna think about it or anything, but I'm a little pissed off about it. I've been measuring a week and a half head for about 3 months now and it was confirmed by my last ultrasound. That puts my due date at around September 13 th , two days before my scheduled C section. I know doctors know best, but with all these damn contractions and not being able to work and how big the baby is, I would have liked them to move up the due date, even a little, and schedule earlier. Really, I'm scared shitless of going into labor. Hell, I'm even scared right now that if these contractions keep me up tonight, I will p