fell

When the sun came in through the window, she opened her eyes and fell through the sunbeams.
She fell through the floor and was left with gashes
She fell through the tangle of twinkling lights
Fell through the wrapping paper and tape
Fell through the bows and stockings
Tore through the ribbon and was left with gashes
Fell through the stories of pain she heard
Fell through her own pain and stopped to check her bleeding gashes
She knew she couldn't fall any further. 
She was buried and bleeding
Until she got up and flew through the pain
Flew up through the bloody mess of paper
Ribbon and lights left behind
Stockings and bows left bloody
She flew
Up from her bed to grab at the sunbeams
Bright and cold 
Sunbeams that fell on her gashes, pulling them shut
Sunbeams fell on her face
Fell on her naked breasts and blood-stained hair
Fell onto her soul to lay her pain to sleep
She was awake again and ready. Ready to just be.
Dancing the day away until again she fell
Fell asleep.






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