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Accomplished

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This week my breakfast idea was fabulous!! I've had a little more energy and have been sleeping much better. Next step is drinking more water. I love coffee and diet coke so much. Haha! But now it's time for more water. In addition to eating a little better, I've begun my fall cleaning. The kids craft cabinet is ready for Christmas crafts. My pantry is also nice and clean and almost ready for baking. Time to shower and enjoy my weekend!!!

It's only food....

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I really need to post more instead of letting things build up until I have a million things to write. My only major concern at the moment is my horrible eating habits lately. I let my busy life get in the way and then I'm in bed at 8pm with no energy eating cookies. I start my day off with coffee and end up drinking coffee until the afternoon. When I realize I haven't eaten much of anything, it's too late because I'm running home and then running to get Bella from school and then helping with homework and making dinner. And now it's 5pm and aside from coffee and pretzels, I'm starving. Like,  eat a whole large pizza starving. Terrible. And then there's me chugging water just before bed, dehydrated as hell. No bueno. Tomorrow I'm going to start trying to get back on the path to eat better. I'm going to spend some time in the kitchen prepping some breakfast sandwiches and some quick meals. I need my energy back!! Anyone have any fast, easy meal ide...

Light the candles

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So I decided to really look at the calendar and realized it's just two weeks and two days till Loki turns 3. I really want to know where the time went. Seems like only last year I was bringing him home from the hospital. And now he's 3! Not to mention my Bella is going to be 7! Three weeks and one day till lucky number 7! And I can't stop thinking of all the milestones still to come.... Like I want to rush them and really have some fun. But I don't wanna  rush them. Not one bit. As much as it pains me to get them to brush their teeth every night and go get in bed and stay in bed... I'm going to miss it one day. Soon enough they'll be out with their friends raising hell and I'll be old. Haha! I don't think I'm going to look at the calendar again any time soon.

And again

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I think it's time for the daily blogs again. I'm overwhelmed and falling behind. I think I need to organize my thoughts and get some things out of my head. I haven't remembered any of my dreams lately. Either because I'm so tired or I don't get enough sleep or I just really am overwhelmed. But the other night I dreamed about you. It rained hard that night. And I dreamed I was running away in the pouring rain. You were chasing me, trying to catch make and tell me it was going to be alright. I stopped and let you catch me and it was alright. I think I feel into a deep sleep after that and woke up oddly at peace. I didn't question my dream. I didn't think about it much. I just knew that you would make everything better. And then every day since that night, you have made it better. Even for just a moment that I stop going crazy. I am happy. And that is amazing. So.... I leave you with that. Just for these moments I can stop. I need to stop more. Just stop an...

Middle Fingers Up!!

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Hey!! It's me!! I'm still alive. Some of you may know my story by now. No appendicitis... it was a precancerous tumor. I'm good. I swear. The surgeon said he was pretty epically sure they got all that fucking thing out before it could turn cancerous. I'm also confident that this evil will not die. I have too much to accomplish yet.  I will admit I haven't let anything sink in enough yet. I'm still up in arms about how to feel. Kinda scary, but no one has time for emotions and shit. Well, I don't, but everyone around me seems to. Just wish I could get a minute to let it all sink in and move on, but I can't even pee by myself.  So, there you have it, folks, I'm a hot mess again. Same shit different day. This time, I'm not selling tickets...  Fuck you, and good night!

No Energy

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Day 4 and I have no energy right now. Feeling the same. I also decided to take the rest of the week off work. I get tired fast and I move like a turtle. By Monday I plan on being much better and much less swollen. The swollen belly is torture. Today was a good day, though. I got to watch my daughter receive Principals Honor Roll again and then go to go out for lunch to celebrate. It was a good day. But I'm pooped now. And swollen. Haha. Not gonna let that go. Hope everyone sleeps as great as I'm going to!! And here's a picture of my son's most loved giraffe helping my belly feel better. So cute that little boy of mine!

Ovarian Cyst Pictures, Anyone?

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This is apparently a hemorrhagic cyst, which is what I had. My husband looked at a bunch of pictures with me and he found a few that looked like the surgery pictures, but he kept insisting it was bigger than any pictures we found. I can't wait to see the damn surgery pictures!! I'm picturing a gigantic, bloody cyst covered in adhesions and looking all gnarly. I guess I'll have to wait 'til next week to see. I wonder if the surgeon will let me get a copy of the pic? or instagram it? Anywhoo... I'm 3 days into recovery and I'm doing better than I have after any surgery, except that I can't get over being so damn tired. I can cope with the sore, swollen belly, but being tired is killing me. I made muffins with my kids today and after that, felt like I needed to go back to bed. I was also hot and sweaty like it was 100degress in here, but it was only 76 and the AC was on. It's funny that I had been thinking about what I am afraid of for the past...