Chronic Ama

My 3 days of rest is coming to an end. Well, technically, I'm supposed to take it easy tomorrow too, but I need to get out of the house. Don't worry, I'm not going to run any marathons. Aubrey and I and the kiddos are gonna do lunch. Not sure where yet, though. Guess we'll see what tomorrow's cravings bring. I got a little stir crazy today until I realized that I could watch "Mystery Diagnosis" without having to turn to the score on the basketball game or have to "share" and watch 30 minutes of Dora. That was when I really started to relax. I tried to sleep twice, but Baby Buddy decided to play a game of inutero football. Not cool. This kid is already driving me nuts. Haha! I also got to stay in my pajamas and eat candy without having to hide out to do it. I didn't indulge too much. I'm still trying to get my proteins in, which I did without trying these last two days. I think I'm eating enough, so it's s not that that is weari...

No two pregnancies are alike... especially between your first and second. I've heard that over and over and over again, but I seem to refuse to acknowledge it. I made it through my first 12 weeks unscathed, being high risk for miscarriage. In between, I had horrible cramps, which no one told me were completely normal with a second child. Thanks for that memo! As if being pregnant wasn't hard enough as it is... I was released to my regular OBGYN in March, who took over keeping a close eye on me. In April, she decided I could only work 7 hour day shifts at work, which was fine with me. I can't lift or bend or run marathons. Again, fine with me. May 5th we found out we're having a baby boy. Mark Logan Avery is due September 23rd. But, May 9th, we found out, he'd be coming between September 12th and 16th. Wooo! Time to start planning. A scheduled C section is fine with me, but I had 18 weeks to get things out of the way, which is where my trouble began. We planned a yar...

I've been feeling great the last two days! It's about damn time! I'm still a little tired and irritable, but I've got my aches under control. I got my hair cut today and I'll probably give myself a pedicure after Bella goes to bed. We also have the new episode of Spartacus to catch up on. Yay! I figured I'd archive some of my recipes as I make them. I've got quite the repertoire going, I think. And I use just about all the things I buy with coupons. I'll try to include prices to see how it is possible to save money and cook yummy. So, for today... This morning we had French Toast Casserole. What you're going to need: loaf of cinnamon bread, white bread or wheat bread (i get mine at the bakery outlet. the cinnabon bread that is almost $3 at Fry's comes out to about $1 at the bakery outlet. I buy in bulk, use coupons, and freeze) 4 eggs (on sale for 89cents a dozen) canned milk or your favorite coffee creamer (16cents a can of carnation or 50cents ...

Yup, it came as a surprise. I went in for check up with my doctor since I hadn't been since October. It was nice getting through the holidays without worrying about my condition or new prescriptions or anything else. Apparently it was so nice that my body decided to start ovulating on its own and get pregnant. Unfortunately, I'm considered at a high risk for miscarriage given that I have PCOS and had much difficulty getting pregnant. I have to go back weekly for blood draws and ultrasounds. That makes me nervous. I was told to call if I had any cramping or bleeding and was put on Prometruim , a progesterone prescription. Of course, yesterday was my first bad day. I woke up feeling blah. I had felt a little blah on Super Bowl Sunday, but I chalked that up to working past midnight that morning. Monday I woke up nauseous and lightheaded. I didn't want to get out of bed and was cranky. Not that unusual. After nap time, I showered to get ready for work and started to have stabb...

Well.... I've been busy. And lousy at posting. OK , just lousy. Forgive me. The shot of Toridol I got at the end of September really helped! In two days, I was pain free and able to go back to work. I tried another round of Provera to bring on a period and then was sort of talked into trying Clomid again, since after the surgery, we may have more luck. The Provera and Clomid have started making me nauseous a lot and I've lost about 9 pounds this month. I also have been reading that nausea is another symptom often related to PCOS . It's NOT the metformin as I'm on the extended release and have had no problems with metformin for months. I'm also NOT pregnant as I have yet to ovulate since the surgery. Nausea can be caused by cysts, which I'm not 100% sure I have again, but it is likely. After the last round of Clomid , I had follicles on each ovary, but none big enough to trigger ovulation, so the follicles may have developed into cysts again. At least I...

Had my follow up appointment number 23849728053780465 today for my pelvic pain. It started last Tuesday with cramps that just were so uncomfortable. I just didn't feel myself. Of course, the doctor though it was my period coming on... rest... pain killer... blah blah. Went back on Friday after waking up with pelvic pain in my left side radiating to my leg. Guess what, ANOTHER CYST! More rest, pain meds and follow up today. Since Friday I've been online and on message boards and reading books about PCOS . I discussed some options with my husband and we concluded that maybe I need a regular routine again. Going to bed at the same time, waking up at the same time, taking meds at the same time, planning meals, regular exercise. It's what was recommended when I was first trying to get pregnant with Bella. It apparently worked then because I was pregnant about 5 weeks into my "treatment" and while I was pregnant, I only gained 28 pounds and lost it all by 6 weeks pos...

Admitting that I'm getting depressed is the hardest thing I've ever had to do. I want to be a happy person. I want to love my life and look forward to each day. I don't think I've been able to do that for almost a year now. I feel stupid complaining about my health again and again. I feel like no one really understands that actual physical pain I've been in. You can't see it on the outside, so I feel like people don't think it exists and I just make it up for attention. Sometimes I wish that were true. It would be easier to deal with maybe. I'm also tired of explaining to people what's wrong with me. What this disease has done to me and that I probably can't have more kids. Which makes it harder when people ask when I'm going to have more. I'm absolutely sick of people reasoning that I should be grateful for the child I have because I at least have one. Don't they think I've thought of that? It's still pretty devastating to kn...