Chronic Ama

Well, I have lost 3 pounds in the last two months. So, I guess maybe it does burn a few. Ah, well, I've had an eventful day and week. It started with my doctor appointment on Tuesday. I was going to get this damn Implanon thing taken out and instead, we decided to do it when I go in for surgery again. Great! I'm having my tubes tied and possibly, my left ovary removed if it is really as fucked up as we think it is. No problem there. I was hoping to have it done in the next two weeks as the doctor implied, but when they called, they gave me the date of September 5th. Oh hell no. Not that week. I told the lady I wanted it done next week or ASAP. She hasn't called back. So, well.... waiting anxiously for all that crap to happen. I've had this kind of surgery twice already, but I'm nervous as fuck about it. Maybe it's also that having my tubes tied is pretty permanent. I really know I don't want any more kids, but a little part of me is sad that I won't

It officially feels like 4th of July was months ago. School starts for Bella tomorrow and I am a mess. Well, that and other things. It feels like my baby is growing up too fast. I never cried when she started Preschool, but I think this may be different. I guess I won't truly know until tomorrow morning. I think I'm still in a fog from practicing waking up and getting the kids ready to leave the house by 5 after 8 this morning. Bed time is going to be extra early tonight. I gotta get ready to take pictures tomorrow morning too. Yeah, I'm that mom. I gotta cherish the moment. Plus, I need as many goofy faced pictures as I can get for when she decides to start dating.  I'm keeping this short. I got some chicken on the new grill outside. I don't want a burnt ass dinner. No one does. I'll tell you about my adventures in doctor's appointments later... tomorrow... maybe. One thing at a time... And one drink at a time. Gotta pace myself.