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 I guess I was meant to open Blogger today and see the blog my daughter left for me last April, at the beginning of the pandemic. I must have had a flare up at the time. It was probably stress about the world being on fire.  That actually is a great opener for why I'm back. It's been on my mind so much lately to keep blogging about being a chronically ill mother. Mom is a tough job in itself, but there are so many more variations when it comes the Chronically Ill Mom job. I'll just take things day by day here and see where we end up at.  I've been feeling down today because I got a migraine yesterday morning that started with pain in my neck. I think my nerves have regenerated rather quickly following the ablation I had done in April. My migraines had started 2021 with an intensity only matched by my uncontrolled fibromyalgia flares. I had cervical medial lateral nerve ablations done starting at C3 and then going up and down to burn off all the nerves that were the culp

Thirty-six hours of labor and an emergency C-section, that began with no anesthesia, later, this little nugget came into our lives and made me a happy momma. Not gonna lie, I totally wanted a girl as my first baby. I wanted someone that I could help shape into a strong willed, goal achieving woman much like myself. I think I have succeeded so far as the amount of stubbornness in her soul could move mountains, or root them further into the Earth. Happy Golden Birthday, Angel! I'm sure you're at school right now being the center of attention and basking in the birthday wishes from all around. You were born to be in the spotlight, baby, and I know if you keep pushing, you'll be queen of whatever you set your mind to. The world is big and scary, but you can tame it and make it your own. Nothing's impossible and your strong will can prove that to you and to anyone that tries to tell you otherwise. You have that same magic in your veins that I found in mine and it will se

I'm not currently very happy with Blogger's integration of their mobile app and desktop site. My blog post that I started working on this morning was just eaten. And that's not the first time that's happened. I'm also wholly disappointed in the app. I love using it for blogging on the go, especially on the treadmill, but it has so many glitches, it's annoying. I cannot post pictures to my blog from the mobile app and that sucks. Bitching aside, today I had a couple epiphanies. Is that allowed? Can someone really have more than one in a 24 hour period? Is that why my anxiety showed up after these lovely, revealing moments in my day? First, I have been keeping track of what I do every day and how I feel at the end. I've come to the conclusion that about 4 hours of activity (cleaning, shopping, just being up and on the go) is about all I can handle right now. I'm hoping to increase this a bit so I can be functional when I go back to work. I would like t