Chronic Ama

That's kinda what I feel like right now, even though I know it's not true. I'm tired and I have some decisions to make, although I'm certain the decisions have been made. I just need to ride them out and stand beside them. I also feel terribly overwhelmed again. I think I've over booked myself just a little. A little little. But I'm about to ask for some help and just get shit done. I can do this. I always come through. Just gotta keep my head on my shoulders and out of my ass.

Gonna be in for it tomorrow. Hungover and staying up late to watch Walking Dead. This girl is gonna need an extra shot in her iced venti non fat no whip mocha. No one piss me off tomorrow. And don't judge if I'm asleep under my desk.

That's what I need here. Ya know, I've never been a great fiction writer, but I feel like giving it a try. Maybe some dirty romance? What do you say? I think I have a good imagination. But my husband's trashy fiction is much better. Not sure if I could live up to that standard yet. But I still gotta try.

I think I'm getting bored with this. Just a little. Or possibly I have more to do than say lately. Like clean house and take out the trash and laundry. Ugh, so much laundry. It's piled in a basket on my floor right now. And now you may be thinking this is possibly a metaphor for something. It most possibly is. As I'm spending more time writing here than paying attention to my date tonight. I should go. And no pictures tonight. I don't feel up to it.

Indulgence. Gratification. Getting my way. Those are a few of my favorite things. And I practice them as often as I can. You should try it sometime. Try it without fear. You will eventually learn your limits and possibly push yourself out of your comfort zone. You might like it. You might not. It's not for everyone. If you can't let go of fear or regrets or guilt, there's no point in doing many things in life. Let go.

I'm out of things to say today. I'm happy to have a day off tomorrow. I'm happy I'm done with Girl Scout cookies. I'm happy I had a bottle of Apothic Red. It was yummy. I'm happy I got to have dinner with my sister today. I just a happy girl I guess!

Laying in bed..... waiting for the Walking Dead.....