Chronic Ama

61 days until Halloween, even thought it's basically Halloween year round in my house. More importantly, there's only two hours until the other half of my heart gets back from his work trip. I'm so excited! I have been trying to keep busy around the house all morning. I even got crafty for about an hour and then made sure everything around the house was perfect. I even waited to put on my lipstick so it was carefully applied and had no chances of smudging. If you don't know already, I'm totally a type-A perfectionist.  I have been thinking a lot these last few days about all the aspects of having endometriosis. A lot of the message boards and groups I am part of have posted interview type questions lately and I wonder what any of you would ask me about having endometriosis. I'm curious if anyone is reading this and for those that do, would you take the time to post a question. Not only will it help me put the noise in my head into words, but it will help

Today I had my appointment with my neurologist to discuss my migraines. I just have to say, I love it when doctors can shut me up. I have that stubborn streak in me, but it also means that they do have the answers I need. I am still taking a migraine preventative and have added a fast acting migraine med. Last time I was on this medication, I hated it. I distinctly remember the last time I took it. It knocked me out and I woke up in a pool of sweat and drool completely disoriented. I hate that feeling and I hate taking meds that make me feel that way. I feel like I lose time and productivity. The neurologist countered my dislike of this med by pointing out... Would you rather be knocked out for a few hours and wake up with no migraine or have one for four days again? Yeah, I guess you know my answer. Today I also attended the first Parent Teacher Committee meeting at the kids' school. I'm so excited to be a part of something again since we opted to not do Girl Scouts this yea

Numbers are spelled wierd. I always think I'm spelling something wrong. But, I'm a writer, so I'm not supposed to spell, right? Today feels wierd. I want a project to do, but I'm still low on energy. Today I was supposed to relax, right? Don't worry, I am! I bought a pool lounger and threw it in our little pool. And that's where I am. Floating in little pool listening to Hocico and drinking my electrolytes. I bathed in sunscreen, but I honestly wouldn't mind the color. The sky is so clear today. I think I should bring my laptop out when I'm done in here and crank out some blog content. When it gets too hot, I can head inside to work on my pictures from the month of August. Oh look! I've got a plan for the day! I'm gonna keep floating. Catch you later....

I feel mildly like a psychopath. I'm soaking in a hot bath of epsom salt and listening to Carnifex while it's 100degrees out and my AC is excelling at its job. My legs haven't stopped hurting since I went to the ER two and a half weeks ago. My back started spasming shortly after and apparently caused my IT band to tighten again in my right leg as well as my piriformis muscles. Makes it feel like I'm on a medieval rack with my hips being pulled in opposite directions. My calves have also tightened up to keep everything in place. I hurt. And I'm trying my best to alleviate this cluster fuck of muscles that also feel like they weigh a thousand pounds. But, I digress in my complaints. I walked two miles this morning! Let's digress again.... I have never considered those metal handles in the bathtub until this very moment. Right now. I'm contemplating how the hell I'm going to get out of the tub. I'll let you know how it goes.... It went fine. I'

No, I didn't forget about you. I was busy enjoying my weekend with my family. We went on a mini adventure on Saturday to the Arizona State Museum and then to lunch at The Fix. I highly recommend The Fix for your mac 'n cheese fix. It wasn't crowded and the food was yummy. Perfect for a cheat day! Haha! I've almost survived the first day of my husband being away for work. I don't know if I'll survive the night. I don't sleep well alone. I think maybe Azra will have to snuggle with me tonight. Or, maybe I'll just pass out watching Netflix at some ungodly hour. I'll let you know what happens. My leave of absence was approved! I'm just waiting on seeing my primary doctor next week to have paperwork finalized. I indeed feel like a weight was lifted. Now I have time to focus on getting better (again) and going on to the next step in this plan of mine. You're going to have to wait for it, though. It's a lengthy process. I'm making toda

It's storming here and my pup is pretty scared of the thunder. She usually isn't, but I think the combination of the wind and rain with it is putting her on high alert. She's desperately trying to get under the covers with me. I used to fall asleep with her when she was a little tiny puppy, but now having 65 pounds of poochifer on me is not quite comfortable.  I, on the other hand, am enjoying the rain. The sky has been teasing to dump rain for a few days now and it's finally here! While this has thrown a wrench in our plans to go to the lake this weekend, it has opened up the opportunity to stay close by and visit another museum. I'm excited to go on another family adventure. There will be plenty of pictures to share too! In other news, today was indeed my last day at work until at least October. All morning I dreaded telling anyone. I sometimes don't like explaining my health issues only because I sound like I'm a wimp. But, then, I remember a

I skipped a day again. I was tired yesterday. And today was a little rough. I had to come to terms with my health a little. I push myself a lot. I ignore my body a lot. I do it because I always want to do more, do better, keep going. And I can't. I really need to take a step back and find my balance. I have a plan, though! And I'll share it little by little as I think putting it out there may just make me stick to it. First, I am arranging to take a leave from work for a little bit. I am seeing a plethora of doctors next month, both new and old. My goal is to have them help me solve these migraines that have been leading to bigger and bigger flare ups. I need to get on the correct HRT that will help me avoid both the migraines/flare ups and the faster return of pain causing Endo lesions. Once that is done, I need to really balance what I can and can't do. If I have to limit my work hours to relieve some stress, then I need to stick to that. And I also have to learn to lis