Chronic Ama

Well.... I've been busy. And lousy at posting. OK , just lousy. Forgive me. The shot of Toridol I got at the end of September really helped! In two days, I was pain free and able to go back to work. I tried another round of Provera to bring on a period and then was sort of talked into trying Clomid again, since after the surgery, we may have more luck. The Provera and Clomid have started making me nauseous a lot and I've lost about 9 pounds this month. I also have been reading that nausea is another symptom often related to PCOS . It's NOT the metformin as I'm on the extended release and have had no problems with metformin for months. I'm also NOT pregnant as I have yet to ovulate since the surgery. Nausea can be caused by cysts, which I'm not 100% sure I have again, but it is likely. After the last round of Clomid , I had follicles on each ovary, but none big enough to trigger ovulation, so the follicles may have developed into cysts again. At least I&#

Had my follow up appointment number 23849728053780465 today for my pelvic pain. It started last Tuesday with cramps that just were so uncomfortable. I just didn't feel myself. Of course, the doctor though it was my period coming on... rest... pain killer... blah blah. Went back on Friday after waking up with pelvic pain in my left side radiating to my leg. Guess what, ANOTHER CYST! More rest, pain meds and follow up today. Since Friday I've been online and on message boards and reading books about PCOS . I discussed some options with my husband and we concluded that maybe I need a regular routine again. Going to bed at the same time, waking up at the same time, taking meds at the same time, planning meals, regular exercise. It's what was recommended when I was first trying to get pregnant with Bella. It apparently worked then because I was pregnant about 5 weeks into my "treatment" and while I was pregnant, I only gained 28 pounds and lost it all by 6 weeks pos

Admitting that I'm getting depressed is the hardest thing I've ever had to do. I want to be a happy person. I want to love my life and look forward to each day. I don't think I've been able to do that for almost a year now. I feel stupid complaining about my health again and again. I feel like no one really understands that actual physical pain I've been in. You can't see it on the outside, so I feel like people don't think it exists and I just make it up for attention. Sometimes I wish that were true. It would be easier to deal with maybe. I'm also tired of explaining to people what's wrong with me. What this disease has done to me and that I probably can't have more kids. Which makes it harder when people ask when I'm going to have more. I'm absolutely sick of people reasoning that I should be grateful for the child I have because I at least have one. Don't they think I've thought of that? It's still pretty devastating to kn

Four days since surgey on Monday and I'm still very uncomfortable. It's at least a tolerable pain, now, though, but still sucks! Monday we got to the hospital at 10 and went to pre admit, then to amit, then to a room. Waited in said room for about na hour during which I got to strip down and put on this lovely plastic gown and smelled like a medical strorage room. Yum! Got asked a milllion questions that had been asked at my pre anesthesia and my pre surgery appointments. Then wheeled to the pre op room. (Thank god they didn't make me walk across the hospital in that god awful gown!) Met my nurse, answered more questions, put on a sexy beret, got an IV, and then it was surgery time. I got hella nervous. They wheeled me into the OR and had me roll over onto the operating table. Hell, if I was only a little nervous before, I was ready to piss myself nervous now. Some "relaxation" medicine into the IV, some oxygen, then, I was out. Time to get on with the hysterosco

Well, I see it's been weeks since I've posted anything about my lovely health issues. Last time, I had a cyst on my left ovary that was giving me a great deal of pain. About a week after that, I was back in the doctor's office with more pain, on the right side of my pelvis. An ultrasound revealed a cyst on my right ovary. "F my life" ran through my head a few times. I was still finishing the Provera prescription, so my doctor was confident that the pain would go away once I got my period. But, it was also time to discuss other options. My other option was surgery, which I kinda knew would have happened sooner or later. The doctor submitted the paperwork with my insurance and said they would call me before the week was up. Halfway through the week, I got my period! But, it was the worst pain I had ever felt. I was up most of the night moaning and groaning in pain. I kept my husband awake too apparently. I called the doctor the next morning again and went back in t

Many of you have asked when and how I potty trained my daughter, so I decided to blog about it and share it with everyone. I heard about a program called "diaper free toddlers" on TV once and it got me interested. I did some online research, tweaked the program to fit us, used it and had a great success. I believe the key is early potty training. Can your toddler walk? Stand? Sit? Follow simple instructions? Then, your toddler is ready to be potty trained. The longer you put it off and the "terrible 2's and 3's" have hit, it may be harder to potty train your toddler who is trying to take control of their own world. By 2 and a half, it is harder to hold their interest. I started at 18 months with Bella, but the stomach flu set us back a little. She was full potty trained by 20 months. Here's how we did it: First, you will need to set aside 3 full days that you and your spouse/partner/mother/best friend can dedicate to this program. Two people are a key

More pain. Same story. It started about a week and a half ago as a dull pain around my C-section scar area. Last night it got worse. I was wide awake with sharp stabbing pains on my left side. I was finally able to go back to sleep and wake up fine. But, after a few hours today, the pain came back. I could feel it in my leg and my butt! I called the doctor and they said to come in right away. I went in and had a ultrasound to reveal another cyst. Yuck. Ouch. The doctor said it may be because I should be getting a period, but since my period was late, maybe not. I'm taking another round of Provera starting tonight and I'm gonna take some pain killers to help ease the pain. This sucks. I can't believe that after switching doctors and after more tests and meds, the same problem is still persisting. The doctor also wanted me to try increasing the dosage of my Metformin, but the last few times that happened, I was so sick and miserable. I had blood drawn today, with results comi

Another expensive, failed test at returning to normalcy. FML.... The HSG test a few weeks ago came back normal. I have a healthy uterus and no blockage. Great news! So, I started ovulating on the 15th, which was confirmed with ultrasound. On the 19th, I got a shot of HCG to help with ovulation. Yesterday, I went back for blood work to check my progesterone levels. The level came back at 0.9, which was negative for ovulation. Really?!?! I feel like what's the point now. I've also been miserable for going on three days now with horrible nausea. At least I'm not puking anymore. I think my drop in hormones is making my stomach do turns. I have to wait two weeks to get back to the doctor to see what the next course of actions is. I fear it will be a laproscopy, which they put off since it looked like I was ovulating. I would love to go back to a regular doctor that won't cost me an arm and a leg, but I know that no progress will be made. I just need it suck it up and play th

I spent the first part of my day nervous about this HSG test. Luckily, I have a friend who works in radiology and I was able to call the tech doing the test to ask questions. It helped put my mind at ease. The test was quick and easy. My husband, Mark, got to be in the room with me. He made everyone laugh with his quirky little comments. He also got to wear an ultra-cool superman lead apron. Yes, there's a picture of it on Facebook. I got a few bad cramps during the test and I'm still having bad cramps. I'm just mostly cranky and uncomfortable right now. The doctor said there were not blockages in my fallopina tubes and everything looked fine. Now, we just need to get me to ovulate like normal. I have a follow up appointment this Thursday to see what we do next. It's time for me to get back to the couch. Moving around isn't helping the cramps and I need some good brain rotting TV to relax me. Haha! We shall see what this week brings...

Yesterday I had my second appointment with the specialst. Things look good. My bloodwork came back normal, but of course, I was told that it could be the metformin that's making me normal. I'm staying on the metformin and trying another round of clomid. In the next week I have to have a hysterosalpingography (HSG) or what they call a dye test. Thet shoot dye into my uterus and fallopianubes and look for things that can be wrong like scarring, fibriods or blocked tubes. I'm supposed to have this done by next Friday at the latest. I have my follow up appointment next Thursday, so before Thursday would be better. I just have to wait for them to call me and schedule since I have to go to the hospital to have that done. I was hoping it would be an in office procedure. Depending on how the HSG and the clomid go, I may have to have a laproscopy done as well. Not excited. I'm going to try to get to my old doctor in the next week to request a copy of my medical records since the