X marks the spot...

Yeah, a matchstick that makes your life hell. Well, actually, not for the first 5 months at least. And I guess I need to put some of my blame on the surgery I had in May.... But, since June I've been feeling like crap. I got a period after not having one for 7 months and the day before that came on, I had a migraine that kept me in bed all day. Then, after 7 days of a heavy period, I got a few days of rest, more headaches and then another period!! OK, my hormones are out of whack! I am also so anxious and angry and tired all the time. Today seemed like a good day to cry to me and also a good day to pick up the phone and call my OBGYN. I thought about going back to my endocrinologist since he said I may need surgery again and he could tie my tubes, but I'd have to go to my OBGYN to get the implant removed. So, I figured I'd just try to see one doctor. I figure she could take the damn thing out, tie my tubes, remove scar tissue and assess my ovaries in one swift move. Hopefully. First, I gotta get this implant out. I have two more weeks to live with it. I can take the bleeding and the mood swings, but I can't take the migraines. Friday night into Saturday morning I had one so bad that I threw up a few times. The only thing that made me feel better was some leftover percocet from my surgery. And to top things off, I had to miss work, which I HATE to do. Saturdays at work are my sanctuary from being a stay home mom all week. 

Anywhoo... back to the subject at hand. In addition to all the bleeding, headaches and mood swings, I've had horrible cramps and pain in my pelvic region again. My C section scar hurts like a mother fucker and I'm stuck in granny panties so nothing touches it. I actually considered the Essure procedure, but since that basically works by developing scar tissue in your fallopian tubes, I figured I should stay away. It seems my body really likes scar tissue and the scar tissue really likes to cause pain, so it just seemed like that is not a good option for me. At least with getting my tubes tied, I can have another doctor's opinion on how my ovaries look and how much scar tissue still exists and where I should go from here. 

Tell ya what, though, after this, I want to be DONE with surgeries and pain and PCOS/PCOD. It really is time to move on. I know I will be stuck with PCOS for a long time, but I just want to be done with everything and have it under control. It's time to take back my body and stop fucking worrying. 

Well... until this thing is out of my arm....