Chronic Ama

Well, I have lost 3 pounds in the last two months. So, I guess maybe it does burn a few. Ah, well, I've had an eventful day and week. It started with my doctor appointment on Tuesday. I was going to get this damn Implanon thing taken out and instead, we decided to do it when I go in for surgery again. Great! I'm having my tubes tied and possibly, my left ovary removed if it is really as fucked up as we think it is. No problem there. I was hoping to have it done in the next two weeks as the doctor implied, but when they called, they gave me the date of September 5th. Oh hell no. Not that week. I told the lady I wanted it done next week or ASAP. She hasn't called back. So, well.... waiting anxiously for all that crap to happen. I've had this kind of surgery twice already, but I'm nervous as fuck about it. Maybe it's also that having my tubes tied is pretty permanent. I really know I don't want any more kids, but a little part of me is sad that I won't

It officially feels like 4th of July was months ago. School starts for Bella tomorrow and I am a mess. Well, that and other things. It feels like my baby is growing up too fast. I never cried when she started Preschool, but I think this may be different. I guess I won't truly know until tomorrow morning. I think I'm still in a fog from practicing waking up and getting the kids ready to leave the house by 5 after 8 this morning. Bed time is going to be extra early tonight. I gotta get ready to take pictures tomorrow morning too. Yeah, I'm that mom. I gotta cherish the moment. Plus, I need as many goofy faced pictures as I can get for when she decides to start dating.  I'm keeping this short. I got some chicken on the new grill outside. I don't want a burnt ass dinner. No one does. I'll tell you about my adventures in doctor's appointments later... tomorrow... maybe. One thing at a time... And one drink at a time. Gotta pace myself.

If you're a normal human being, the subject of saving money has crossed your mind at least once recently. If you watch the news and hear about the grim economy, you've thought about money. If you have kids that will be starting school soon, you most certainly have thought about money. I have been thinking about it day and night it seems. Since I have demoted to being a very part time employee and devoted my time to my kids, money has been at the forefront of my mind. I've thought about saving more, spending less and keeping a tight budget and I have recently put some idea into action. First off, we all have bills. Rent, mortgage, car insurance, electricity, cable, gas, cel phone, car payments.... the list just goes on and one. But, how many of us really look at each bill before we pay it every month? I mean, when was the last time you looked at your car insurance bill before sending the check or signing up for auto pay? I admit, I don't dig deep into my car insur

Yeah, a matchstick that makes your life hell. Well, actually, not for the first 5 months at least. And I guess I need to put some of my blame on the surgery I had in May.... But, since June I've been feeling like crap. I got a period after not having one for 7 months and the day before that came on, I had a migraine that kept me in bed all day. Then, after 7 days of a heavy period, I got a few days of rest, more headaches and then another period!! OK, my hormones are out of whack! I am also so anxious and angry and tired all the time. Today seemed like a good day to cry to me and also a good day to pick up the phone and call my OBGYN. I thought about going back to my endocrinologist since he said I may need surgery again and he could tie my tubes, but I'd have to go to my OBGYN to get the implant removed. So, I figured I'd just try to see one doctor. I figure she could take the damn thing out, tie my tubes, remove scar tissue and assess my ovaries in one swift move. Ho

Thanks to a friend I made on Facebook, I've started researching my family history. I think I'll be starting this project as a Christmas gift for my grandparents. Since last night I found out that my great grandfather on my Nana's side was named Zeferino. Pretty intersting name. And my Nana's grandmother was a midwife named Amada Canales. I'm actually going to try this on Ancestry.com. Wish me luck. I'm already hooked.

Almost two weeks since my surgery and I still hurt. I guess that's expected, but I sucks. I was only able to do about 20 minutes of yoga  before I had to pop some ibuprofen and relax. Sucks sucks sucks. So, last Friday I had my follow up with the doctor. Apparently I didn't have any cysts this time, but I had scar tissue that was so bad, it was pulling my uterus to the left and it completely covered my ovary and fallopian tube on the left side. Yuck. I also had fibroids on my ovary that were biopsied, but are believed to be nothing of concern. The doctor said that if I wanted to get pregnant again (which I don't), I probably only have the use of my right ovary. And, if the pain doesn't go away, I may need another surgery to "clean me out" again. I also inquired about getting my tubes tied. If I don't need another surgery, they can do this new thing called Essure  that is supposed to be easy and non invasive. Fine, but I have this gut feeling that I

Mother's Day is upon us and I could not have gotten past the last three days without my mom and my grandma. I had my surgery on Thursday afternoon. Mom watched the kiddos while Nanie took me to the hospital and waited for me all afternoon. I wasn't even nervous going into surgery 'cos my Nanie and I just passed the time talking and talking and laughing too. As for the actual surgery, I'm still not sure what all they did or found. I know there was an excessive amount of scar tissue again. I am also as sore as sore can be. First, I was just sore around the incision in my tummy, but today, it seems almost worse. Sitting her typing is killing me a bit. It's my goal to not need pain meds after today, but I guess we'll see about that. I can't wait to find out what all was done to me. I have my follow up appointment on Friday morning, so I have to wait all week. Blah. Anywhoo... the sofa is calling my name. Happy Mother's Day to all you hot mommas out the