Birthday Month Day 5

I'm at work this morning and I'm miserable. I feel great today, but I have grown to despise the toxic environment that my workplace has become. No one is happy. And that bothers me.

I've always read articles about why employees are unhappy and the thing that sticks out to me is that people don't usually quit jobs, they quit bosses. I feel that rings very true lately. I have seen so many people leave simply because they feel there is a huge lack of respect lately. That has been my nail in the coffin.

I have 7 shifts left before I take a leave again. Yes, my health does play a role in this. But my health has always been a factor in everything. And, previously, despite my health, I have always tried to give my job 120% because of the people I have worked with. Now, I honestly can't change how people treat each other. I have tried, but the lack of communication and kindness has already left an irreparable rift in the environment and toxicity has seeped in and damaged everything it touches. It is ever so evident in the way the top of the ladder even shows off such a sour distaste for getting things done. Yeah, it's a crazy time of the year, but your attitude determines if you drown in the ocean or captain the ship.

That's my two cents. The one thing I can change is my removal from a toxic environment. And a wish that the ones I love do the same and can do the same. I don't wish any ill will on my employer of the last 18 years. I know they'll still be around. And I also know that if the captain can't get back on the ship, there will be no choice but to make waves and attempt to swim to shore.